Damn, I’m more superstitious than I realized. I’ve been holding these thoughts for several years, but was afraid to say them out loud, for fear of “jinxing” them. According to superstition, speaking positively about something will cause it to be "jinxed" and things will reverse course, and go the wrong way.
Superstition may be crazy, but I read the last two paragraphs and felt relief – as though it was finally safe to start saying it out loud.
That’s the long way of saying thank you.